SARI-SARI STONED.
Kanina on my way to St. Jude Parish I passed by España, Recto, Mendiola, Morayta, and Gastambide on foot. I missed the place, I fucking did! But despite the 12 noon sun, it felt eerie and I felt no sense of belongingness. The streets I then walked by as early as 6 A.M to half-heartedly attend my 7:00 A.M class felt indifferent, the people as well. The streets I’d take to walk back home in the wee hours of the night depending on my level of intoxication, felt awfully scary and so unsafe. I can’t even imagine how I managed back then. This is the end of it, really. It pains me to realize quite late and look back too early. But even though I carry megatons of happy memories, we all have our expiry dates. You have to be somewhere at some point for some time.

cuteness-daily:

Because everyone needs more cute puppies with outfits on their dash. :)

I see cats and dogs and pandas on my Tumblr. MUSIC. POETRY. A lot of rage and too much TV. Coffee and tea. Porn. Fat-shion, tattoos, boots and some obnoxiously hot (gay) men and the profession. Enjoy.
I’m feeling kinda sappy and what better to do but write, right? Today I’m kind of contemplating about my past relationships. Although there is but one, technically. I’ve been thinking, why in the world have I spent 8 years stuck in a bad relationship and why the heck can’t I move on? I didn’t talk to this guy who is allegedly my boyfriend since Valentine’s day until this 12nn when we fought over the phone and via text and now I’m sending him posters of gigs and whatnots to attend to (with me ofcourse). Most of the time I don’t care about him and most probably he doesn’t care about me either. Is this sawa factor? We (now) usually run out of things to share and say to each other and I can’t really tell if either of us is bored or what but we just don’t really care! Is this being too comfortable? I don’t know what to do but guess what - I don’t care! I can’t muster the energy for all the drama that’s coming our way so probably this is why I keep it stagnant as it is. I can’t break-up with him because I don’t know why I should or why I shouldn’t. I don’t know what to tell him because I’m neither happy nor sad or mad when I see him. Is this just a phase?

I remember the times when I thought my father was a bitter man that holds grudges against other people as if it were a career. He upheld “FORGIVE BUT NEVER FORGET” and now that he’s gone I find that so fucking true. I have a love-hate relationship with holiday gatherings and these events sparks the bitterness in me. Forget the light and loving Christmas feels! People suck in general; some you can tolerate and live with (on a daily basis) but some assholes - you really can not even if you die trying. Forget the small talk, forget I exist, stop pretending you’re interested in the music I’m playing, just let me finish my beer/wine/vodka/etc then we’ll go home when the day’s over. Heck you can even have the karaoke mic to yourself and eat it.

2013 is almost over. I had high hopes for the year of the snake but lemme just say that for me to use the phrase “high hopes” indicates that it was quite a flop. Maybe I should’ve consulted the horoscope more. LOL. This year I have solid wishes and goals and dreams but zero resolutions for 2014. You know too well that new year’s resolutions is as real as the tooth fairy. I have a cousin though that quit smoking cigarettes last year, I think he’s holding up quite well but I don’t care - he ain’t a better cousin. Ha. Ha. Ha. My 2013 is quite “malas”, my hopes for 2014 are not set that high. I’m turning 25 and signs of quarter-life crises are showing since my 23rd. To sum it all up my 2013 is (my) a very lazy year. Too lazy that I just realized that I did not even attempted to attend a single dawn mass nor wake up early for that matter. But I believe and wanted so bad to see it for myself if wishes really come true once you complete the simbang gabi. Boo me. I have only a few wishes and if you are a prayer warrior, maybe (just maybe) you guys can help me with this. I learned in STC that when you ask people to pray for you rather than keeping it to yourself, its “stronger”. In what sense? I don’t know, so here it goes. I ask the Lord for strength, patience, perseverance and courage in helping me finish Dental Medicine school. Help me combat laziness and believe in myself and my skills (that I am destined for greatness, chos!). Also, to give me ‘mababait’ na patients so that I will not run out of patience. Lastly, to focus on the things that really matter so that my strayed life can be back to even just a little normal. Hehehe. Despite all the rants and requests I threw around because of my poor faith, I still am thankful. I have my family, my friends, Michael and etc etc things in life that will always make me luckier than other people. I am favored and loved as a daughter and as a sister. I have a solid life buddy who just told me a few hours back that he’d go insane without me. Although he just told me that he wants me to cut a little loose on the belly fat! I’m still thankful for the unsolicited advice on dieting because first off , it is good for the sex life and also because I believe everything good will follow after accomplishing that. HAHAHA. And lastly because other parts of the body weren’t mentioned. What bothers me though if its getting in the way. Wuuuut! This post is so random I didn’t want it to end this way (on bellies and sex) but I have no choice.

barfbags:

This show shaped me into who I am today

May pusa sa bubong

May pusa sa bubong

unicorn-meat-is-too-mainstream:

Shake: Hilarious High-Speed Photographs of Dogs Shaking by Carli Davidson

Shake is a new book of photos from Portland-based photographer Carli Davidson who used a high speed camera to capture hilarious freeze-frame shots of various dogs mid-shake.

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#BBM ME

#BBM ME

WHAT GOES AROUND COMES BACK AROUND…

WHAT GOES AROUND COMES BACK AROUND…

#GoodbyeBreakingBad #iCryNow

#GoodbyeBreakingBad #iCryNow

Listening to What You Thought You Need by Jack Johnson

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These came in the mail today. They’re not the ones I chose but it’s okay, they’re free anyways. #GetGlue

These came in the mail today. They’re not the ones I chose but it’s okay, they’re free anyways. #GetGlue

'wag na magtanong kung coffee or tea, both daw.

'wag na magtanong kung coffee or tea, both daw.